I know that this will sound silly to most but I am also sure that some may feel the same, I have already said this to a couple of members in PM's but I wanted to talk about it here as I can't really stop feeling useless.
As much as I feel so at home here, I also feel so damn useless, and keep putting so much pressure onto myself to try to help others, yet my knowledge of most things here is so poor that I feel I am a total waste of space
this is a feeling that I cannot do anything about, but to make everyone understand I would have to go into my life story and I am not about to do that ("thank god" I hear you cry!! lol ) and you'd be right.
But in all seriousness, I wish I could be of more help, and get paranoid into thinking that I am being watched to see how much of a help I am or am not being, this I know is not true......I hope
Please forgive the silly post, but does anyone else feel like this? my guess would be no, as most threads that I have read would indicate that you all know your stuff, I know it is a matter of learning and remembering, but that does not come natural to me, most advice and help that I have received goes in one ear and out of the other, practically nothing sticks, my mind goes blank when reading tutorials and I can't deal with it.
Maybe others are like this too, but maybe not so extreme as in they can eventually get stuff into their heads, I just can't for the most part, and feel I am giving the community here nothing of any value
I really apologise for this
Please don't get the Violins out lol its not meant to come across like that, but me and wording things also is not great.
In short I hope you don't get penalized for not helping anyone, believe me I would if I could, but I get down easy.......and apologise to anyone that I may have advised and it has not been at all helpful.
Please don't have a go at me for this post, I just wanted to say in a nutshell that I feel bad for not being able to help anyone
All I find I keep doing is asking things myself instead of helping others
Jekyll and Hyde