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that if they should seek, and take the utmost pains all their lives, God
might justly cast them into hell at last, because all their labors,
prayers, and tears cannot make an atonement for the least sin, nor merit
any blessing at the hands of God. Some have declared themselves to be in
the hands of God, that He may dispose of them just as He pleases; some,
that God may glorify Himself in their damnation, and they wonder that
God has suffered them to live so long, and has not cast them into hell
long ago.

Some are brought to this conviction by a great sense of their
sinfulness, in general, that they are such vile wicked creatures in
heart and life: others have the sins of their lives in an extraordinary
manner set before them, multitudes of them coming just then fresh to
their memory, and being set before them with their aggravations. Some
have their minds especially fixed on some particular wicked practice
they have indulged. Some are especially convinced by a sight of the
corruption and wickedness of their hearts. Some, from a view they have
of the horridness of some particular exercises of corruption, which they
have had in the time of their awakening, whereby the enmity of the heart
against God has been manifested. Some are convinced especially by a
sense of the sin of unbelief, the opposition of their hearts to the way
of salvation by Christ, and their obstinacy in rejecting Him and His
grace.

There is a great deal of difference as to distinctness here; some, who
have not so clear a sight of God's justice in their condemnation, yet
mention things that plainly imply it. They find a disposition to
acknowledge God to be just and righteous in His threatenings, and that
they are undeserving: and many times, though they had not